Vicious Cycle

When I'm stressed, working out relives my stress. When I work out regularly, in the mornings, my stress levels all day are lower. However, why the heck is it so dang hard to make myself work out when I'm stressed? I know the positive reasons, I know I feel better, as a matter of fact, I usually feel great, but no but butt still stays in bed. Blah!!! For example, last week, my trainer and I were discussing that I need to get in 5 days of activity, ideally the two days of strength training with her, two additional days in the gym of cardio and then my one weekend day of outdoors cardio. So, no problem, I did my two days with her, check! Was majorly stressed though so ended up slacking the rest of the week, especially since my days with her were early in the week and then she was out of town. Booo... I did get some redemption of getting outside for cardio two days but still that means I only hit 4 days. Not bad, but not great. So, skip to this week - normally my trainer and I would meet on Monday, but she was still out of town. Knowing I was going to be stressed out on Monday, I slept in... Okay, so I got off work early, feeling guilty from sleeping in I took the dog for a walk in the evening. Normally, I walk the dog in the AM and hubby takes the PM shift. Okay, it was movement, not really cardio but something. So, I told myself, I have GOT TO wake up Tuesday and get my booty to the gym and get in my cardio day if I am going to hit my 5 days - Tuesday: Cardio, Wednesday: Strength with Trainer, Thursday : Strength with trainer, Friday:Spin, Saturday OR Sunday : hike... Sooo this morning, set my alarm to go to the gym.... woke up before the alarm went off, fed the dog, and changed the alarm and crawled back in to bed. WHY!?!?!?!?! I knew it was going to be another stressful day and I "deserved" to sleep in.. No excuses... Working out would have made me feel better. I did convince myself to redeem that mistake in the afternoon when I got off work early again. I did end up at the gym for some running and man, it felt GREAT!!! But I still just don't understand why it is when I'm stressed I have such difficulty making myself go work out when I know how good I will feel afterwards.... In other news - I'm down to 165 lbs, which is 77 lbs lost and I was able to fit in to a size 10 for my work pants!!

75 pounds GONE!!

I am officially down 75 pounds! Wow, since February! Spent some time this week in Colorado with my parents. First time they've seen me in 2 years and they were AMAZED at how much smaller I am now than I have ever been. This weekend coming up the inlaws will be here and they also have not seen me recently so that should be interesting. My parents handled my new eating habits okay - at first they were a little surprised with my little portions but they quickly figured it out. I was happy my fill level was perfect for giving me nice restriction and keeping me fill for hours. I traveled just fine with it, even at a protein bar on the plane because I was hungry! I might have ate a little too much left over Halloween candy though, but I'm proud to say there is none left in my house now so I won't be eating any more of it! I've been hooked on tacos and quesadillas lately. Not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing, but they are delicious! I am hoping my current fill level will get me through the rest of this year, it seems to be a good level. Well, I need to get ready to take the dog to the park and do some shopping! My crockpot gets here Monday! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Candy, airplanes, family

So the Halloween candy has been dangerous ... I cannot yet be trusted with it in the house.  I did however still manage to get down to 168 lbs!! Yay!!
Took my first airplane trip since surgery. I drank lots of water specificly ice water. Had no trouble with my band so I was happy. I was worried about that but it all went well. Packed plenty of protein bars and shakes just incase. So now I'm in Denver visiting my parents. They have not seen me in about 2 years and this is the first time since surgery .. mom and dad are impressed with how much weight I have lost but I think its a little shocking for them to see how little I eat now. I wanted to get out today to try to workout but the snow has kept me in... ah well. 

Restricted

Wow band is not being friendly today. I can eat but definitely can tell the restriction.  My yogurt made me uncomfortable this morning and now my salad... :( random tightness.

sunday weigh in

Official weigh in is 171!
Bought a SMALL from lands end! still mostly a medium girl, but thats okay! and a size 12 pants! woohoo!!

171

Well my first week at my new branch and in training have been great. my two days of fluids for my fill were a little tough, but hey they always are it seems. Back on foods - the first day I had my pumpkin yogurt for breakfast, a protein shake after working out, a latte, and then for lunch I stopped by taco time for a small cup of chicken chilli... I could barely eat it... I also caved an got some of their tater tots. Yup, I ate TWO tots and a couple of spoons of chili and was STUFFED. I had some more protein in the afternoon to supplement not eating as much and for dinner I made a pot of yummy beef and pork chili. Ummm. I thought I grabbed two cans of kidney beans but no, I didn't discover it until I dumped the black beans in that I was wrong! hahaha oh well, it turned out good anyway.
Today I had my pumpkin yogurt again, a chai tea latte, 4 flatbread crackers with 2 oz roasted chicken (deli) and some cream cheese, and jimmy johns unwich. Dinner will be more chili. the 4 flatbread crackers and meat stuffed me as did the jimmy johns, I'm kind of surprised I was able to eat it. I think this level of restriction feels okay so far. We'll see how it does as I move back to chicken and steak and such.

My back has been hurting pretty bad so my working out is a little off, but I'm hoping it's better after the weekend. Hubby wanted me to go hiking with him and the dog but my back hurts to much so I decided to stay home and rest and work on balancing the bank accounts. go figure, that's why I'm blogging instead! LOL

So the scale this morning (After breakfast) was 171. Tomorrow is my official weigh in day so I'm excited to see where I am!! I told hubby I want to go shopping this weekend!!

Another adjustment

Went in to see my doc since I've been getting hungry every 2 hours and eating crazy amounts of food! LOL it's not been too bad - i am down 4 pounds since my last visit a mere 4 weeks ago. That's good, she was very very happy with my progress. They gave me a .5 cc fill since the last one was only .25 and did nothing for me. we'll see how this one goes. i'm still sore my from workout yesterday with my trainer but tomorrow is a new day. Fluids today and tomorrow and then looking forward to the pot of chili I'll make on Friday. that seems to be my new tradition. I make a pot of chili after I have an adjustment. Go figure. I guess it's my comfort food that I know won't give me troubles. Well, hope everyone is doing well!